Numb Beneath the Skin

 # Numb Beneath the Skin

**Verse 1**

Numb Beneath the Skin,

Dead in the water,

Frozen in a pond

Where the night gets darker.

Cold beneath my skin,

Take hold of my hands

And pull me further in.

Crawling skeletons

Come dragging through the mud,

Bones against the concrete,

Teeth beneath the flood.

Tell that to my face,

Tell that to me now,

No use telling them

They won't hear you anyhow.

**Chorus**

Numb Beneath the Skin

But I'm still moving on.

A walking skeleton

With everything gone.

No excuses, please,

No apologies tonight.

I'm moving through the darkness

Looking for another light.

**Verse 2**

What might have been

Is buried underneath,

Among the broken bones

And the dirt beneath my feet.

Take hold of my hands,

Don't let me disappear.

There's something in the distance

That keeps drawing me near.

Frozen in a pond,

But the water starts to rise.

Crawling skeletons

Are staring through my eyes.

Tell that to my face,

Tell me what you know.

No use telling them—

They're already below.

**Chorus**

Numb Beneath the Skin,

Dead in the water.

Walking through the ruins

Like a forgotten daughter.

No excuses, please,

No apologies remain.

I'm carrying these bones

Through the acid rain.

**Verse 3**

Everything comes loose.

Skin becomes a memory,

The body has no use.

I'm moving in the next world,

Or somewhere in between,

A walking skeleton

In a landscape never seen.

Numb Beneath the Skin,

But something still survives.

A voice inside the ribcage,

A pulse beneath the ice.

The crawling skeletons

Keep following behind.

They cannot take the last thing

That is still inside my mind.

**Final Chorus**

Numb Beneath the Skin,

Dead in the water.

Frozen in the darkness

But I won't stay under.

Take hold of my hands,

Pull me through the cold.

No excuses, please,

No stories left untold.

Tell that to my face.

Tell that to my bones.

Tell that to the skeletons

That crawl across the stones.

Numb Beneath the Skin,

But I'm moving somehow.

Moving in the next world,

Moving through it now.

**Outro**

What might have been

Is gone.

No excuses.

No apologies.

Tell that to my face.

Tell that to the crawling skeletons.

I'm Numb Beneath the Skin—

But I'm still moving.

They Know Where I Am

 # They Know Where I Am

**Verse 1**

I see them waiting at the crossing,

Standing underneath the light.

I change direction, keep on walking,

Still they're somewhere out of sight.

Engines growl along the roadway,

Headlights cutting through the rain.

Every time I try to disappear,

Something brings me back again.

They are stalking me,

They are following my trail.

They are playing mind games,

Trying to make me fail.

I can feel the pressure rising,

I can hear it in the street.

Every road I take tonight

Feels like somewhere we will meet.

**Chorus**

There's a conspiracy against me,

And the fear is closing in.

They're watching every movement,

Waiting for the moment to begin.

I run, I hide, I disappear,

But somehow they are always near.

There's a conspiracy against me,

And tonight it feels too real.

**Verse 2**

Now the footsteps sound behind me,

Getting closer as I run.

Every stranger has a purpose,

Every shadow could be someone.

Phones are ringing in the darkness,

Unknown voices, silent calls.

I can feel the pressure building,

Like a warning through the walls.

They are stalking me,

They are playing with my mind.

Every message has a meaning,

Every signal has a sign.

I don't know how far it reaches,

I don't know how deep it goes.

But the fear keeps getting stronger

Everywhere I turn and go.

**Chorus**

There's a conspiracy against me,

Now it's closing every door.

They're watching every movement,

And I can't take this anymore.

I run, I hide, I disappear,

But somehow they are always near.

There's a conspiracy against me,

And the whole world feels involved.

**Verse 3**

Now I'm running through the city,

Neon burning in my eyes.

Cars are slowing at the corners,

Figures moving through the night.

Every window looks like someone,

Every face is staring back.

I can feel them getting closer,

I can feel them on my track.

They are stalking me.

They are playing mind games.

They want to keep me frightened,

They want to drive me insane.

The conspiracy is spreading,

Like a signal through the wires.

Every second pushes harder,

Every breath becomes a fire.

**Chorus**

There's a conspiracy against me,

Now there's nowhere left to go.

They're watching every movement,

And they're letting me know.

I can't sleep, I can't stay still,

I can't silence what I feel.

There's a conspiracy against me,

And the pressure keeps increasing.

**Bridge**

Don't tell me to forget it.

Don't tell me to walk away.

I know what I have experienced,

I know the price I pay.

I've been pushed into the darkness,

I've been hunted by the fear.

And every time I think it's over,

Something tells me they're still here.

**Final Chorus**

There's a conspiracy against me,

Now the night has come alive.

They're watching every movement,

And they're waiting outside.

Every street becomes a warning,

Every sound becomes a threat.

I keep moving through the darkness,

But they haven't caught me yet.

There's a conspiracy against me,

And the fear is at its peak.

They're stalking me, they're watching me,

They're everywhere I look and see.

I don't know where this ends tonight,

I only know I have to fight.

The darkness keeps surrounding me—

But I'm still here.

I'm still alive.

**Outro**

They are

 stalking me.

They are playing mind games.

There's a conspiracy against me.

And I keep moving.

I keep moving.

I keep moving.

They want me dead

# They’re Watching

**Verse 1**

They want me dead,

They want to make me unalive.

They want to destroyed me,

They are conspiring against me.

They are lying to me,

They are playing mind games with me,

They are stalking me,

I feel them everywhere I go.

Footsteps echo down the street,

Every shadow follows me.

Streetlights flicker overhead,

I hear whispers in my head.

Every window, every door,

Makes me wonder even more.

I keep looking over my shoulder,

The night just seems to grow colder.

**Chorus**

They're watching, watching, watching me,

The conspiracy surrounds me.

Every shadow, every sound,

Feels like someone's coming round.

They're watching, watching, watching me,

I can't escape what I believe.

My heart is racing through the night,

I'm searching for a place of light.

**Verse 2**

They are lying to me,

They are playing mind games with me.

Every word becomes a clue,

Every face looks strange and new.

I walk faster through the rain,

Trying to outrun what's in my brain.

Neon colours start to bleed,

Fear becomes the air I breathe.

Telephone ringing in the dark,

Unknown numbers leave their mark.

Curtains moving, passing cars,

Every streetlight looks like stars.

I don't know what's real tonight,

I only know I'm losing sight.

The conspiracy is growing,

And my fear keeps overflowing.

**Chorus**

They're watching, watching, watching me,

The conspiracy surrounds me.

Every shadow, every sound,

Feels like someone's coming round.

They're watching, watching, watching me,

I can't escape what I believe.

My heart is racing through the night,

I'm searching for a place of light.

**Verse 3**

Now every footstep sounds too close,

Every stranger looks like a ghost.

Every car that slows down near me,

Makes me wonder who could be.

Every phone call, every stare,

Makes me feel they're everywhere.

The walls feel closer than before,

I don't trust the locks upon the door.

My breathing gets faster,

My heartbeat pounds,

I hear distant voices

In the city sounds.

The conspiracy is in my mind,

A thousand questions intertwined.

I can't tell where the shadows end,

I can't tell foe from stranger or friend.

**Chorus**

They're watching, watching, watching me,

The conspiracy is surrounding me.

Every shadow, every sound,

Feels like someone's closing in now.

They're watching, watching, watching me,

My fear won't let me breathe.

My heart is racing through the night,

I'm trapped inside this endless fight,

I'm searching, searching for the light.

**Bridge**

Stop the voices, stop the noise,

Give me back my inner voice.

The fear is screaming through my head,

Turning every thought to dread.

I can breathe, I can remain,

I don't have to become the pain.

The night is long, but morning comes,

And slowly all the shadows run.

**Final Chorus**

They're watching, watching, watching me,

The conspiracy is all I see.

Every shadow, every sound,

Everywhere I look they're coming round.

They're watching, watching, watching me,

I can't escape the fear I feel.

My heart is pounding through the night,

I'm running from the dark inside.

They're watching, watching, watching me,

The whole world feels like it's closing in.

They're watching, watching, watching me,

I don't know where the nightmare ends.

Through the darkness, through the night,

I keep searching for the light.

I keep breathing, I survive,

I am still here, I am alive.

**Outro**

They want me dead...

They want to make me unalive...

They want to destroyed me...

They are conspiring against me...

They are lying to me...

They are playing mind games with me...

They are stalking me...

They're watching me.

They're watching me.

They're watching me.

But I'm still alive.

ostracising, disowning and excommunicating

 **Verse 1**

I am ostracising, disowning and excommunicating,

I walked away from the ties that left me suffocating.

I chose my own peace, I chose to be free,

I finally stopped letting them define me.

No more walking backwards, no more living in fear,

I’m breathing in freedom, the future is here.

I’ve carried their weight, but I’m putting it down,

I’m finding my smile, I’m reclaiming my ground.

**Chorus**

I am ostracising, disowning and excommunicating,

But I’m fucking alive and I’m celebrating!

I chose my own mind, I chose my own way,

I’m waking up stronger with every new day.

Ostracising — I’m free!

Disowning — I’m me!

Excommunicating — so let the whole world see:

I cut the chains and I finally breathe!

**Verse 2**

I don’t need their permission, I don’t need their lies,

I’m looking at tomorrow with my head held high.

The past can scream, but I’m walking away,

I’m building something better with each fucking day.

No more guilt, no more shadows following me,

No more pretending to be someone they want me to be.

I lost a family, but I found my voice,

And choosing myself was the best fucking choice.

**Chorus**

I am ostracising, disowning and excommunicating,

But I’m fucking alive and I’m celebrating!

I chose my own mind, I chose my own way,

I’m waking up stronger with every new day.

Ostracising — I’m free!

Disowning — I’m me!

Excommunicating — so let the whole world see:

I cut the chains and I finally breathe!

**Outro**

Ostracising.

Disowning.

Excommunicating.

And fucking free.

I chose myself.

I chose my peace.

I chose to live.

Save the Last Spliff

 **Save the Last Spliff**

**Verse 1**

The television whispers

To a room that's gone to sleep,

Streetlights paint the ceiling

In a colour cold and deep.

The bills are on the table,

Like little ghosts in rows,

And every passing minute

Is somewhere that nobody goes.

I've been staring at the window

Watching strangers disappear,

Everybody's going somewhere,

I don't know why I'm still here.

**Pre-Chorus**

So turn the lights down slowly,

Let the evening lose its shape,

I've got nowhere I need to be,

And nothing left to chase.

**Chorus**

Save the last spliff for me,

When the night becomes too loud,

Let the smoke become a doorway

Through the noise and through the crowd.

Save the last spliff for me,

Let the colours drift and spin,

Maybe somewhere in the silence

I can find myself again.

**Verse 2**

The ceiling starts to breathe now,

The wallpaper starts to swim,

A distant train is calling

From somewhere on the rim.

Athens is a postcard

Pinned beside my bed,

White walls beneath the sunlight,

Blue skies overhead.

I'm saving every penny

For a place I've never seen,

While dreaming of another world

Behind the television screen.

**Pre-Chorus**

And maybe I don't need to run,

Maybe I don't need to hide,

Maybe there's another way

To take a journey inside.

**Chorus**

Save the last spliff for me,

When the night becomes too loud,

Let the smoke become a doorway

Through the noise and through the crowd.

Save the last spliff for me,

Let the colours drift and spin,

Maybe somewhere in the silence

I can find myself again.

**Bridge**

Don't tell me that tomorrow

Will be better than today,

I've heard that song a thousand times

And watched the years decay.

Just sit beside me quietly,

You don't have to understand,

Sometimes all a broken heart needs

Is another human hand.

**Psychedelic Outro**

The room is turning silver,

The shadows turn to gold,

The clock becomes a carousel,

The future becomes old.

Athens waits beyond the morning,

The sea is somewhere blue,

And for a moment in the darkness

I can almost make it through.

Save the last spliff for me...

Save the last spliff for me...

But when the morning finds me,

I'll put my shoes beside the door,

Maybe I'll step outside again,

Maybe I'll see a little more.

Save the last spliff for me...

Tonight I'm staying here.

Tomorrow is another day,

And tomorrow can come near.

The debts are piling up

 **Verse 1**

The debts are piling up,

The letters through the door,

I count the coins upon the table,

Then I count them once more.

I've got no bud,

Got no hope cos I've got no dope,

The walls are slowly breathing,

And I'm hanging by a thread of hope.

**Chorus**

I'm trying to save up for a trip to Athens,

Dreaming of the sunlight on the stone,

But when the night comes crawling through my window,

I don't want to be here on my own.

So I'll take a trip inside,

Where the colours slowly change,

Ride the waves inside my mind,

Till I find my way again.

**Verse 2**

The ceiling turns to purple,

The shadows start to sway,

I hear the distant traffic

Like an ocean far away.

I've got nowhere to run to,

I've got nowhere left to hide,

So I close my eyes and wander

To another place inside.

**Chorus**

I'm trying to save up for a trip to Athens,

Dreaming of the sunlight on the stone,

But when the night comes crawling through my window,

I don't want to be here on my own.

So I'll take a trip inside,

Where the colours slowly change,

Ride the waves inside my mind,

Till I find my way again.

**Bridge**

Maybe Athens isn't somewhere

You can reach upon a train,

Maybe sometimes getting through the darkness

Is the journey just the same.

And somewhere in the distance

There's a morning I can see,

A little piece of sunlight

Waiting there for me.

**Final Chorus**

I'm trying to save up for a trip to Athens,

Maybe I'll get there someday soon,

Walking through the ancient streets at sunrise,

Underneath a strange and beautiful moon.

I won't take the final trip tonight,

I'll let the restless feeling pass,

I'll take a trip inside my imagination

And wait for morning to arrive at last.

make myself unalive

 Slice my wrists

 jump off the edge

 into a clear lake

 no one around 

just suicide make myself unalive 

The clear water turns blood-red,

Like something biblical, something foretold.

The trees stand silent on the shore,

While crimson shadows fill the cold.

No angel comes, no trumpet sounds,

No voice descends from heaven above.

Just blood-red water beneath a dying sky,

And the weight of everything I was.

The trees don't answer

The water doesn't speak

I'm disappearing slowly

Somewhere underneath

Alcohol and sleeping pills 

voices telling me to take an overdose 

Trying to make the voices stop

Another night, another room

Another reason not to talk

I'm better off dead

Or that's what the darkness said

Every thought inside my head

Pulls me somewhere I don't want to go

I will see you in the next life

No one knows what's underneath

The silence that I wear

I laugh when people look at me

But nobody sees despair

 morning  does not changes things

shadows change their shape

 I can't find one reason

To survive another day

I'm better off dead

Those words are in my head

The voices inside my head are commands

And tonight I'll try to stand amd jump off the edge 

I will see you in the next life